To keep everyone updated. It has been a while, so I will have a lot to tell.

I ended up having a D&C about 3 weeks ago. Everything went very well. The procedure only took 8 minutes and recovery about 2 hours. I didn't have to be dialated since the sac was SOO close to passing anyway. It was a hard decision, but for my health it was the best one. The doctor said that I would probably pass the baby in the next 24 hours if I decided to pass it on my own. And if I did I would probably end up in the ER anyway for heavy bleeding, possibly need a blood transfusion, and possibly having to have the D&C anyway over the weekend and she wouldn't be in town. We have to wait 3 months before trying again. If we got pregnant so soon after the miscarriage there would be a higher chance that we would go through this again. It has been hard, but we know that God knows best and that He has a better plan for us. So we just have to put our faith in Him and He will direct our paths.

On another note. I found out today that a very good friend of mine, who has helped me through this, is pregnant. She and her husband went through this about 5 months ago I guess. She has been a great help. I am so excited for her and her family. It is a great encouragement to Dalton and I. I will be praying for them.

Everything else is the same here. Just got back from Thanksgiving holidays with our families. It has been a great little break. I hope that everyone else had a great Thanksgiving as well.

Hope everyone is doing well. Love to all and God bless.

Our Loss

For those that have been following this blog, I wanted to update everyone. I started bleeding saturday afternoon. I called the doctor on call and he told me that he thought that it was implational bleeding and that if it got heavier to call. I didn't have any heavy bleeding or cramping. But the doctor told me to come in Monday. So Dalton met me there and they did an vaginal ultrasound. You could still see the baby, but they couldn't find a heart beat. So we cried together and held each other. We took the day off and Dalton has been super supportive, taking care of me and cleaning the house.

We both really are sad and really wanted this so badly. I keep telling myself that it isn't my fault and that God knows better. That maybe the baby wasn't going to be healthy or something. I have to trust God, not matter how bad it hurts. I know that God answers prayers and that things don't always turn out the way we want them to. I am just putting my trust in God and that he has a better plan for us and knowing that our baby will be in heaven.

Just want to thank everyone for your thoughts and prayers before the pregnancy and now in our loss of baby Vann. We will just carry on and keep trying. Love you all so very much.

9 Weeks

Well today I am 9 weeks. Happy to say that I haven't had any morning sickness thus far. When I went home this past weekend, there was already a changing table in my old room ready to make the trip back with me. And a friend from our church congregation is letting us have her little boys old baby bed and a stroller. So I am excited.

New with the baby. Baby Vann should now be about an inch long and the size of a grape. Baby Vann's heart finishes divinding into four chambers and the valves start to form, as well as the baby's teeth. The baby's organs, muscles, and nerves are working. The sex organs are present but will not be able to tell the sex for a few weeks ( per babycenter.com, where I get all my info) I will find out the sex between the 18-24week. This is interesting, the eyes are fully formed but the eyelids are fused shut until the 27th week.

Not really much to tell. I am still fitting in my clothes so far. My next appointment is next week.

I still have random dreams. I did dream I was having a boy. And I tried to talk Dalton into Cheslynn as a girl name, but he didn't like it. Sorry girls.

We are both so excited and I can't wait for June already. We are praying everyday for a healthy pregnancy and healthy baby. Please remember us in your thoughts and prayers. It is greatly appreciated.

Until next time......Have a GREAT week.