For those that have been following this blog, I wanted to update everyone. I started bleeding saturday afternoon. I called the doctor on call and he told me that he thought that it was implational bleeding and that if it got heavier to call. I didn't have any heavy bleeding or cramping. But the doctor told me to come in Monday. So Dalton met me there and they did an vaginal ultrasound. You could still see the baby, but they couldn't find a heart beat. So we cried together and held each other. We took the day off and Dalton has been super supportive, taking care of me and cleaning the house.
We both really are sad and really wanted this so badly. I keep telling myself that it isn't my fault and that God knows better. That maybe the baby wasn't going to be healthy or something. I have to trust God, not matter how bad it hurts. I know that God answers prayers and that things don't always turn out the way we want them to. I am just putting my trust in God and that he has a better plan for us and knowing that our baby will be in heaven.
Just want to thank everyone for your thoughts and prayers before the pregnancy and now in our loss of baby Vann. We will just carry on and keep trying. Love you all so very much.
The Love of my Life.
Our Little Man
5 comments:
Crystal and Dalton - we are so sorry to hear about this terrible news! We are definitely praying for you guys. I know God will bless you with the courage and persistance to go forward from this!
We love you and are here for you both if you need anything. Trust in God and with his help you will make it through. Stay strong!
Crystal and Dalton, we are praying for you fervently. We are so terribly sorry for your loss. We love y'all and are here if you need anything.
-Amy and Dustin
crystal and Dalton- we love you guys so much and you are in our thoughts and prayers.
Crystal,
I'm so very sorry to read this today...may you and Dalton find comfort in knowing that Baby Vann is in paradise - and will never shed a tear. I know how tough it is on you though. I feel your pain...was in your shoes just short of 3 yrs ago...same exact scenario/gestational age. Isn't it amazing how such a tiny being that you haven't even seen in person can change your perspective on life forever. Not a week goes by that I don't think about our baby we lost. Turn to God for peace and understanding. His love for you will see you through. I'll continue to pray for you. Hang in there. Please call/e-mail me if you ever need a listening ear. :)Love, Elizabeth Smith
sesmith@ag.tamu.edu / 979-450-6200
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