My Blessing.

It has been a LONG time so....lets try this again.

So a lot has happened since I last wrote a blog. The last time I wrote was when I was thinking about the loss/expected due date of our first child. Though I still think about that time I realize that I took everything for granted. I know that God has a purpose and plan for us and we may not always understand but one day we will. I realized AGAIN, that life is so precious. The loss of our first child helped me to appreciate our blessing from God.........Brady. I appreciate everything so much more because of what we went through.

Brady really is my blessing. I am learning so much about myself and from Brady. I have learned that what I didn't REALLY understand as a child I now understand as a mom. Things that didn't makes sense to me then makes sense to me now. I thought I was a patient person, but Brady is teaching me that there is more patience to be had. His SMILE, brightens my life up even more. When things aren't going my way, I have a headache, or just not in a good mood he smiles and it melts my heart. Dalton and I will just watch him (doing whatever he is doing at the moment) and just so amazed. The love I have for him. I recall, not too long ago, my dad asking me..."now do you know how much I love you?" And I knew that he did, but didn't REALLY realize how much until I became a mother. And it puts alot of things into perspective. Like the love and sacrifice God has for us and the giving up is ONLY son. Like the overwhelming joy of holding a baby for the first time. Like what my parents have to endure......the seeing their first child into and out of the world. And what that ALL means to me as a parent.

Dalton is so good with Brady. I am so proud of the support and care he gave me the day that we had Brady. I see how much Dalton loves him and it brings me such joy. He is a great daddy. Brady is growing up so fast. From the time we brought him home, to holding his head up, to smiling and laughing (and sometimes both in his sleep), to trying to roll over, to rolling over, to sitting up, to eating his first cereal, to scooting across the floor, and now to shaking his head "no" (it's cute now, but I know it won't be later). I love him so much. I thank God for him and I now I am understanding as parent what I didn't understand as a child.